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I´ve stumbled upon this old song which brought back memories of dark days experienced long long time ago...to be fair it brings some kind of sadness, but none of the pain. I know it was hard, but time heals everything, right?
Anyhow, the song is beautiful whether you´re ¨home or far¨ ;)

Let her go - by Passenger

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go...

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go...

RIP Bicu!

RIP Bicu!

Nimeni nu traieste vesnic, totusi ma gandesc..de ce el, si cum asa?
Where did i go wrong along the way?

Departe..ultimul drum si eu aici...mii de km departare..
Life sucks!

"Sti bancul cu iarna?"
"...."
"Iar n'am bani :)) " zicea...
..radeam..

It's you again!

I hate you for opening my eyes and see the truth..but it made me stronger after time and I love you for that...haven't cried since then, which is good in a robotized kind of way, isn't it?...
Growing each day throughout experiences, I cought myself losing feelings, replacing the blanks with policy and procedure lines, deeper, until I couldn't make a difference anymore.
Most amazing thing is that only you...can change this...

Until then I'll just be here, far away, listening to lame songs and being sad from time to time. There! I've said it!

what's new?

Sorrow is one of the vibrations that prove the fact of living ...

au trecut..

au trecut ani...dar timpul scurs n'a facut decat sa adauge timp starii...neschimband'o

imi place sa numesc stare ceea ce multi numesc...tu cum o numesti?...

Se poate sa fie zi...se poate sa nu...

aceasta problema trebuie dezbatuta, iar o solutie ar face bine tuturor :)) 

promit sa nu ma mai cert... :))

dar sa ne distram in continuare cu inside'ul..sa nu uitam de ce'am venit, sa nu...

eh nah :))

nu nu nu...dar da?..unde e?

aaaaaaaaa.....il voi gasi fara cautare! 

cum pot simti ca nu simt ce simteam cand nu simteam nimic???

De fiecare data...incerc ceva nou din trecut

Ori de cate ori...am nevoie de MINE, vin la marginea patului, ma trezesc usor...imi fac o cafea, imi fumez tigara mentolata (de ceva timp incoace) si astept sa revin... sunt aici!
Nimeni nu m'a crezut...niciuna din personalitatile multiple nu m'a sustinut in noua atitudine, dar acum imi multumesc si ma imping spre un nou joc...mai gol si mai sigur...
Tastele se lasa apasate...miserupismul de care dau dovada ma lasa sa'mi bat joc..de mine...de tot...e chiar amuzant cat noroi pot arunca, pot primi...nu mai exista suspans...exista jeg adanc, exista goliciune si inocenta sexuala...i'am gasit'o si o voi pastra..un timp..pana la plictis...nici macar purul adevar nu ma mai atrage..
E timpul sa ma las in pace, din nou...eu in schimb voi pleca...mai departe...

Changes...

Schimbari....schimbari... Unii isi gasesc jumatatea...altii isi gasesc un job, undeva departe de casa si de prieteni...
Altii se hotarasc sa invete peste hotare...calatorii....bagaje...intr'un final, toate se numesc schimbari, iar mie nu imi plac.
Doare sa ma uit in jurul meu, sa observ lipsa tuturor celor apropiati, si de ce? Ca sa traim...
Ultima schimbare...mai dureroasa decat oricare alta, ireversibila, ne afecteaza cel mai tare! Daca mie imi e greu sa accept..cum as putea sustine persoana cea mai apropiata care a cunoscut indeaproape acest suflet bun...tanar...care s'a dus "dincolo" fara nici un pacat...un alb imaculat, precum rochia de mireasa in care calatoreste acum...precum fulgii grei de nea ce curg peste inimile celor in suferinta acum...
Nu exista descriere a ceea ce se intampla acum...exista un strigat disperat al mamei dupa ceea ce a fost pana ieri "fetita ei"...exista lacrimi, si poate nu indeajuns, pentru incorectitudinea pe care trebuie sa o acceptam..
Tot ce putem face e sa ne amintim...sa vedem iar acel zambet pur din curtea corpului K...ea va trai mereu, prin cei ce i'au fost apropiati si au cunoscut'o asa cum ea a lasat sa fie cunoscuta...

Pe urmele mele...

Gheata...multa gheata..pe jos...si nu numai...pe masini...pe case...peste tot...
El se cauta de mult...mult timp...cateodata crede ca e prea mult si vrea sa renunte...se resemneaza doar temporar, caci intervin fortele divine cu semne neintelese...de ce?...de ce acum?..sau de ce...inca?...scopul? "ce vreau de la mine?"
Un taxiu...il urmareste..se indeparteaza...dar nu il pierde..se indreapta spre un loc cunoscut, ar putea duce la el..dar nu...avarii...nu'i aici...merge mai departe...un autobuz...daca e in el?..o fii in statie...nu...aici e capatul, de aici nu mai urca..tot timpul merge numai pana aici...si se intoarce..nu era...
"Oare stiu ca ma caut?"
Un vant rece il face sa se acunda mai bine in geaca. Vrea sa cerceteze strada, dar nu vede, gluga a cazut pe ochi...ar intreba, dar nimeni nu stie ce cauta el...toti il stiu acolo...dar e atat de departe...nici el nu stie unde...e sufletul pierdut...nevazut...ascuns intr'un corp plin de suferinta...poate nici corpul nu stie de ce sufera...

Dorinta...il mistuie...iar vine noaptea..vise...cosmaruri..."unde esti? de ce te ascunzi?"

Timpul trece...se scurge minut cu minut...nu a mai ramas mult, iar cautarea se va opri...rezultatul?...

La roux - In for the Kill




We can fight our desires 
But when we start making fires 
We get ever so hot 
Whether we like it or not
They say we can love who we trust
But what is love without lust? 
Two hearts with accurate devotions 
And what are feelings without emotions? 

I'm going in for the kill 
I'm doing it for a thrill 
Oh I'm hoping you'll understand 
And not let go of my hand
(x2) 

I hang my hopes out on the line 
Will they be ready for you in time 
If you leave them out too long 
They'll be withered by the sun 
Full stops and exclamation marks 
My words stumble before I start 
How far can you send emotions? 
Can this bridge cross the ocean? 

I'm going in for the kill 
I'm doing it for a thrill 
Oh I'm hoping you'll understand 
And not let go of my hand La roux - in for the kill
(x2) 

Let's go to war
To make peace
Let's be cold
To create heat
I hope in darkness
We can see
And you're not blinded by the light from me 

I'm going in for the kill 
I'm doing it for a thrill 
Oh I'm hoping you'll understand 
And not let go of my hand 

Dub FX - Love me or not , with lyrics

Lyrics...

You can love me or not
but either way I've got to wake up to face another day tomorrow morning
You can love me or not
but either way I've got the sunrise lookin' in my eyes
And I know
I can love you or not
but either way you've got to wake up to face another day tomorrow morning
Tomorrow morning

I'm not getting used to
my new solitude
I've still got a photo in my wallet of you
I've got to stop myself from picking up the phone
and just calling you
I've got to keep my emotions together
and forever
So don't be afraid
I can't erase memories with the actions i seize
And I
cannot erase
Your smile and your eyes with your hair in the breeze

The only way for me to move on is to write it in a song
That life goes on
And I kicked off this surd
with no one to hold it's getting cold and my chest hurts


You can love me or not
but either way I've got to wake up to face another day tomorrow morning
You can love me or not
but either way I've got the sunrise lookin' in my eyes
And I know
I can love you or not
but either way you've got to wake up to face another day tomorrow morning

Tomorrow morning
What will the world bring?
What will it bring to me?

You've got to be strong
your story goes on and on
even though our page is gone
'Cause there's a world out there
And even though it ain't fair
you've got to not be scared
'Cause I swear
I'll always be true to you
Forgetting your smiles and eyes
well I could never do
Your love is skin-deep with me
You could never be replaced even though you know my heart is free

And don't be afraid

I can't erase memories with the actions i seize
And I
cannot erase
Your smile and your eyes with your hair in the breeze


The only way for me to move on is to write it in a song
That life goes on
And I kicked off this surd
with no one to hold it's getting cold and my chest hurts
You can love me or not
but either way I've got to wake up to face another day tomorrow morning
You can love me or not
but either way I've got the sunrise lookin' in my eyes
And I know
I can love you or not
but either way you've got to wake up to face another day tomorrow morning

Tomorrow morning
What will the world bring?

C'est magnifique! with lyrics

agreed, there existed other ways of parting
if we looked at the bright side it might be able to help us
In this bitter silence, i decided to forgive you
it is the faults that we might do when we love someone so much
agreed the small girl in me often claimed you
you were almost like a mother, you edged me, u protected me
I've stolen your blood that we wont leave each other
in the middle of words and dreams im gonna shout:
I love you, I love you
like a crazy person like a soldier
like a star of cinema
I love you, I love you
as a wolf, as a king
as a man that i'm not
you see, i love you like that

agreed, I trusted you in all my smiles and secrets.
even those, alone whose brother is the unconfessed security guard
In this stony house,
Satan watched us dance
I wanted so much the war of bodies which made peace
I love you, I love you
like a crazy person like a soldier
like a star of cinema
I love you, I love you
as a wolf, as a king
as a man that i'm not
you see, i love you like that

Niente...

And I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me

Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to this kite
Just don't let me down

plimbari lungi, curbe multe...munte...mare...mda

cateodata ma opresc din derularea imaginilor din minte si incep sa gandesc..prost ..daca? dar daca? totu' se intuneca pana la prima scanteie de optimism din omu care am vrut sa raman...

nothing much...depression here...dar poate reusesc s'o las aici...

wait and see...italy is great...yellow doesn't help...maybe paco...

in love...de multa vreme incoa..

Ce'i asta, conspiratie???

Ce'i asta frate, conspiratie?
A venit vara, lasati'o pe ramo, AVETI CE FACE...

Nevoia primara de a izbucni undeva...

Trebuie sa ne abtinem....si numaram...zile...saptamani...

Diferentele care lasa urme. Diferente care atarna la cantar...unele le indrepti, de altele te descotorosesti, mai lasa si celalalt, dar la un moment dat trebuie sa existe un zid...un STOP...si trebuie sa te chinui daca vrei sa ajungi la levelul urmator...e ca un joc...trebuie sa fie foarte captivant pentru a te tine cu sufletul la gura...pentru ati dori sa ajungi cat mai sus...HIGH SCORE!

trebuie, vreau, i will...daca nu, ecranul se innegreste si apar literele ce formeaza groaznicul... GAME OVER!!!

Not random...

A venit, atunci cand aveam cea mai mare nevoie.
A inceput cu greu...parasirea patului fiind facuta ca de obicei...incet, si fara entuziasm..
vis, realitate, vis, imaginatie, realitate...probleme...bine, hai ca ma ridic, fara a avea credinta ca voi rezolva macar una din cerintele zilei...
si pornesc, greu, dar pornesc...totul se pare a fi asa cum am preconizat...grav si nerezolvabil, dar romanul se descurca, deci nu-mi fac probleme.

la telefon, gandurile se intunecau din ce in ce mai tare...nori negri, statea sa ploua...
photoshop si...
hopa, dupa iesire intram in nebuloasa speranta..poate nu-i asa rau after all...si n-a fost, chiar am petrecut foarte interesant, palpitant, neasteptat de bine, restul zilei...

Avem un oras frumos, trebuie admirat, sa se umfle'n pene...
Noua...uite aici se mananca mici...putem trece si dealu'...hai in partea cealalta...

Foame..shaorma? da, dar scrum, nu carne cruda…hahaha….hey!

Vrei brow? Take care!

Guma?..pe livada.

Acum o sa scot toata shaorma! Mai tareeeeee! Am ametit! Te tii de funie, si urci..treci peste…nu! Se trece pe dedesubt, asa…mda, trebuie sa fi mai mic. Oare ne tine? Hai sa ne dam! Au! Am simtit cum imi zdruncina coloana, hai te dai? Nuuu. Ba da, hai! Bine…eh nu a fost asa rau..inca o data..leaganeeeeeee…nisip…da, in papuci si ne mai invartim o data..se umple de copii, hai sa plecam.

Fa-mi pe spate…eu nu as inlocui cu masaj…las ca mergem la mare…

Hai acolo jos…uite capre! Mehehehehe…”Doamne! N-am mai vazut asa ceva!” saraca baba… acolo interzis…si acolo, vrei sa conduci?oare e politie?

Oare incolo ce e? Rasaritu'? Oh...nu te uita, e dubios, oare au sabii...guns?...nu se face un drum la dreapta?...

hai treci, ca trebuie sa-mi parchez si eu tiru'...mai bine ne luam dupa asta cu dacia, nu incetini frate, esti nebun?!?..hai! hai! ...gata..acum pot sa respir
si pe dreapta?...a da...uite capre... nup...se intuneca...poate intr-o dimineata
da' eu vreau in stanga!..bine. ce frumoasa si mare e casa aia...gemuletzu ala?baia. ah.
i missed that!

hmm...hai coboara! Stai sa ma duc in recunoastere…bah…nu, tin la masina!

Hai pe aici…ne mai dam in leagane? Nu, m-am jucat destul azi, fa dreapta...in padure?..

Ne mananca, nu iesi din masina! Pai cum intorc? Dai cu spatele. Da, pui.

Si aici trebuie sa mori, imi pare rau, deaia nu ai mai auzit de nimeni din persoanele din viata mea, recunosc, aici le-am omorat, a venit si randul tau! Ah, oki!

Cu spatele...curba...inca putin...gata...haha, era ocupat.

Acasa? Da. Eh nah, te rapesc imi pare rau! Vai nu, du-ma acasa, unde ma duci? In padure muhaha...eh gata, nu te mai saturi o data...bine. si ce-i zic?...e naspa sa stai singur in casa...inteleg...simt...

Acum ma pot culca linistit, cu un zambet cute pe buze...atinse proaspat de cele mai dorite „ale tale”

Dau cu bata, iubeste osul din par!!! <3

Sunete de Trompeta...

Limita noastra...granitele pe care le punem intre noi...sunt doar psihice, dar mai puternice decat cele reale, palpabile.
Granita cu infernul poate exista intr-o singura persoana..si poti trece foarte usor de la partea umana, la partea diabolica...expulzat :)

Nimic nu'i mai usor, decat sa faci rau, sa fi rau...indiferent, nepasator... daca te ajuta, bravo tie!..

I saw this "and my eyes they see the hands
that could of built
that could have constructed the empire in my mind

the empire
i'll never find
i had a plan
but that was where it ended (alinutza status)
sterg cuvintele, reapar in suflet, suflu, se racesc si nu mai dor...

prietenii mei se distreaza...ceea ce e bine...dar asta ii face sa fie mai putin prietenii mei...si doare mai mult...

dar trecand peste momentele mele de slabiciune...am noroc, am noroc ca am gasit sufletul care ma intareste, imi da incredere in mine, si nu ma lasa sa cred ca viata e doar o perioada mohorata din existenta ta...e mult mai mult, depinde cum tio modelezi...

creste'ti IQ-ul .. hahaha...nu trebuie sa depui efort intelectual...doar financiar:))

sunet pentru meditatie: http://www.meditation-power.com/sample.mp3
Brainwave Entrainment

If binaural frequencies are applied to the brain, it becomes possible to entrain the brain frequency from one stage to another. For example, if a person is in beta state and a binaural frequency of 12Hz is applied to their brain for some time, the brain frequency is likely to change towards the applied frequency. The effect will be relaxing to the person. This phenomenon is also called frequency following response.

When the brain's dominant frequency is close to the applied frequency, entrainment works more efficiently. Thus, when doing a sweep from one frequency to another, the starting frequency should be as close to your current brain state as possible. The sweep speed should be such that your brain's state changes steadily with it, so that the difference never gets very large.
You could liken the effect to a tuning fork or the harmonic vibration of a glass. Most of the brainwave harmonic programmes start from 18Hz - 20Hz and sweep down to the required harmonic.

Binaural Harmonics

The sensation of auditory binaural beats occurs when two coherent sounds of nearly similar frequencies are presented to each ear with stereo headphones or speakers.

interesant...

Plm...

Mda...e foarte usor de fapt: "plm" si gata, am rezolvat, e un fel de "oki", de "bine"...chestii deastea pe care le folosesti pt a termina o idee...o concluzionezi :)) nu tu, eu, bineinteles hhaaaaahhaahahhaa..retard mode.
N-am cuvinte, nu din cauza a ce vreau sa spun, ci pur si simplu vocabularul meu s-a golit, sau era gol, greu de hotarat, n-am cuvinte!

Astept, loading... just wait for a moment please! thanks for your patience!
Ce rabdare frate, esti nebun?! bine! oki!

Sevraj...not...hahaha enough!

I wish the sun was closer to my heart, to keep my soul warm, even if he were in pain, like usually.
It's odd for me to feel this way, i wonder if it's better hmm, don't know, i'm sooo "another me"
Urasc maturitatea si nu o imbratisez nicicum, chiar daca voi ajunge sa-mi schimb a treia oara prefixu'..poate chiar a patra, un copil pana la moarte..eu nu voi avea niciodata copii, dar voi avea mai multi frati :))
S-o vedem si pe-asta!

Destul!

Nu-i ca mine!

- ce ai alege intre o mashina shi o fata?
- fata!
- mda...
- nu eshti multzumit de raspuns?
- nu!
- de ce??
- prezentza fetei in viatza ta...e relativa...

...si nu a crezut...